I tell ya…
I have been going back in forth in my mind about my life for the longest now. Maybe I am overthinking things but I feel that at 25 my life should be better than this. I should have more accomplished by now. I look around and see people my age with a house, their own car, and so much more.
Maybe I need to stay off of the internet and work on myself and these things will happen for me as well. On top of feeling like this, I am working at a job that I do not enjoy at all. It is easy money, but life is too short for me to be unhappy. What I really want to do is mentor low income African American children. Hopefully one day I will be able to do that. I try not to be hard on myself, and my mom has told me that I am expecting too much of myself at my age, and I might be, but I am 25 years old and I want to have a family by the time I am 30. 5 years seems like a long time, but trust me when I say that it isn’t. I really don’t have time to keep trying to figure life out.
I say all of this now, but I don’t know how the Lord will turn my life around in a year. We will see.
I am sorry that this may be all over the place, but this is something that I have been feeling for a long time now. I am going to try to chill out and try to relax!